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27 December 2006 @ 07:07 pm
(open for orlando to continue)  
Holly`s first night in the new house hadn`t been quite as good as she had expected it to be. She fell asleep only when the sun was already raising and woke up soon after that.

After having breakfast she fell asleep on the couch, the tv on and some random tv shows filling the room with sound. Her sleep was uneasy and she dreamed about a man.

He stood in the rain, dark coulds above his head. His head was low and his hands were in his pockets. She couldn`t see his face. It looked as if he was crying, but she couldn`t quite manage to see clearly as the rain was blurring her vision.
Suddenly the man moved and his long coat swayed along with the man`s moves. He sighed heavily and for a brief moment rised his eyes to meet Holly`s. Still the shadows were playing on his face, and the only thing Holly was able to form were his eyes. Solid brown eyes. So familiar.

But then she woke up as if someone had pinched her sides. She blinked rapidly and caught herself breathing heavily. A little sweatdrop ran down her forehead and dripped on her nose. She brushed it away and closed her eyes to regain calmness.

Why had this harmless dream upset her that much? It was weird. She had a strange feeling that she knew that man in the dream. Knew him very well. But she couldn`t quite put her finger on it.

She stood up, determined to find some aspirin for her forming headache. She knew her problems with her head, and she had to take some medicine now, otherwise it won`t end good. But after searching all the cupboards in the kitchen and the bedside table in her bedroom, she understood that she had no aspirin.

"Damn, how could I have been so stupid and forgotten to buy some pills!?" she cursed at herself. She didn`t have her car brought up here still, so she couldn`t go down to the drug store, but she needed the medicine now.
Her only hope was that maybe someone would be home at the house opposite the street.

Holly trew a look in the mirror and rushed out the door, leaving her keys on the coffee table.
charlotte: piper - hauntedcharmingholly on December 28th, 2006 09:07 pm (UTC)
I felt dumbfounded and stunned. He was here, alive and speaking.

"I.. uh." I forced out and wasn`t quite sure what to say. I was scared and stepped back again, even further, even though my heart screamed to go closer and drown in his arms.
bloom_or_land on December 29th, 2006 12:18 am (UTC)
i saw her take steps backwards not realizing she was by the edge of the stairs. in one swift movement, i grabbed her arm and pulled her towards me.

"be careful! you could hurt yourself."

as soon as the words left my mouth, i felt a pang of guilt rush over. you leaving her had hurt her more than her falling down a few steps.
charlotte: piper - hauntedcharmingholly on December 29th, 2006 09:39 am (UTC)
I suddenly found myself in this very confusing situation.
He was holding me by my shoulders tight, half hugging me and I wasn`t sure if I wanted to hug him back.

As much as I longer for this hug, I just couldn`t bring myself up to it. The emotions very cooped up inside me for so long, but I wasn`t able to get them out. There was a reason, however. I wasn`t sure if I would willingly fall into a snake pit or not. I didn`t want to remember all of that pain again, I had barely just started to get over it, and live with it. All the therapy, all the sleepless hours. I had been through so much. And I wanted to tell him so bad about all the awful things, but not to rub it in his face, just to share. And maybe recieve understanding and a sholder to cry on.

But I couldn`t. I was terribly afraid and my walls were building by the second. Orlando was the closest person to me in the whole white world, I knew that I will love him till my death. But I couldn`t and I couldn`t believe the words that left my mouth were mine.

"Please, just... Don`t."
bloom_or_land on December 29th, 2006 07:44 pm (UTC)
i felt her hesitate under my touch. as if she didn't know what to do next. i was hoping she's hug me and let all her sorrow out but how could i be so selfish. the wound was still fresh. and to make matters worse i've made it deeper. [i]fuck![/i]

"Holly, please." i pleaded with her.
charlotte: holly-change everything you arecharmingholly on December 29th, 2006 07:48 pm (UTC)
I shut my eyes stuggling with myself. He knew me. He knew me too well, and now, standing there in front of me, he knew that I wouldn`t run away. Not from him.

I did once. The time he told me that he had to leave, the time that he didn`t furfill my last wish - for him to kiss me. And then he left.

A tear rolled down my cheek and crashed against the ground. Then another one, and another one. It was getting hard to breathe and my knees felt weak.

I didn`t know where to hold on for support, I knew where I wanted to, but I couldn`t bring myself to do it.

"... it`s just.." I forced out between the streaming tears. But that was all. I couldn`t and a sob escaped my lips.
bloom_or_land on December 29th, 2006 07:56 pm (UTC)
nice going asshole. look what you did to her. thats all you ever do. hurt her.

i looked at fragile form, trembling from sorrow. how i wish i could take her pain away. but i know the last thing she wants is me touching her but still i want to at least help.

i reach over and gently wipe away her tears.
charlotte: holly&orlandocharmingholly on December 29th, 2006 08:04 pm (UTC)
His touch was as soft as ever and I couldn`t help myself bringing up memories of us. Happy memories. Our first kiss. Our first dance. First night together. The proposal.

I felt the engagement ring burn my chest under my top, where it lay in a little golden chain ever since he left.

I shook my head and swallowed hard. I rised my eyes and looked into his deeply. I saw love and pain at the same time. I wasn`t sure what it meant, but I wanted to be there, with him.

Not being able to take this I took a step closer to him. Now we were standing so close that our bodies were almost touching. I felt his warmth and my heart started beating so fast that I thought it would stop beating at all eventually.

Then I burried my face into the crook of his neck and let my sobbing fill the heavy air around us. I was still afraid. Afraid that he might push me away, that he might just leave.

But I loved him too much.

I took my chance.
bloom_or_land on December 29th, 2006 08:12 pm (UTC)
it felt just like hold times. everytime we needed to be close we'd hug each other. her face in the crook of my neck and our arms around each other. except the sobs.

"i'm sorry." was all i could manage as my own tears came tumbling down. i'm sorry for what i put you through
charlotte: holly&orlandocharmingholly on December 29th, 2006 08:22 pm (UTC)
I was there. No, we were there. We stood there, tightly in eachothers arms for what felt like an eternity. I wanted to stay like that forever, just be with him, close. Together.

But we weren`t. We weren`t together and I couldn`t do anything about it. I never could, not back then and I was sure that nothing would change now. However that little, shiny sparkle that grew inside my chest every second while I saw him, told me that maybe... Maybe it could be a new beginning.

I wasn`t quite sure if I was ready to try. To try to say how much I still loved him and that nothing would ever change that. How much I wanted to be with him. How much I wanted to hold him close every passing second of my life.

I pulled back a little, not breaking the embrace and rised my eyes to meet his. I had calmed down.

"You still have the same warmth in your eyes..."
bloom_or_land on December 29th, 2006 09:33 pm (UTC)
i wish time would stop still. it all felt too surreal. her frail arms wrapped around my body. i loved how her warm breath caressed my skin.

there was so much i wanted to say but didn't want to ruin the moment. afraid that this time SHE might leave me.

i caress her jaw with my thumb. "i've missed you so much." i whisper.
charlotte: holly&orlandocharmingholly on December 29th, 2006 09:40 pm (UTC)
My heart trembled and took a deap breath.

"Will you kiss me?" i whispered back, staring straight at his beautiful eyes. Shadows played on his skin and it made him look serious. I was so afraid of rejection, jet I still wanted to be in his arms so bad.
bloom_or_land on December 29th, 2006 09:56 pm (UTC)
kiss her? does this mean she wants me back in her life? or is this goodbye for good?

i didn't knew what was next but i wanted to feel her real bad. i slowly lifted her chin. i clenched my jaw in determination as i searched her eyes, for what i wasn't sure.

i gave up soon. maybe the kiss itself will give me answers...
charlotte: holly - im not the only onecharmingholly on December 29th, 2006 10:02 pm (UTC)
As his lips touched mine, I felt as if I was in heaven.
I let myself melt in his arms, just like it had always been before.

So sweet. I had never forgotten how he tasted, never forgotten the feel of his lips on mine. I wanted it to last forever.

I slowly brushed my tongue over his lover lip, my eyes closed, our hands entwined with eachothers hair.
I had wanted this for so long. In this exact moment nothing else mattered to me on this world. Only me and him. Us.
bloom_or_land on December 29th, 2006 11:26 pm (UTC)
as soon as our lips touch i found all the answers to my questions.

i took the moment in. reviving her feeling, which i had engraved and locked away in my memory.

her soft supple lips moving in rhythm with mine. the emptiness in my life now seemed filled. i felt complete. she made me feel complete.
charlotte: piper - ponytailcharmingholly on December 29th, 2006 11:32 pm (UTC)
I slowly pulled away from this angel of mine, and opened my eyes. My stomach was still fluttering and I took a deep breath.

It had felt so good, that now I only wanted more of this. But I composed myself, knowing that this wasn`t the right way how to start a conversation.

I looked straight into his eyes, ready for anything that might come.

"Orlando. I..." and I stopped again, laughing about my own foolishness. "Sorry, I can do this. Ok. So, I really didn`t expect to run into you like this... I actually came for... Damn. I have forgotten what I came for. " I fell silent, understanding that I was making a complete fool out of myself.
bloom_or_land on December 29th, 2006 11:37 pm (UTC)
i looked at her loving eye. yea thats what i was wondering as well. why DID she come over?

"maybe i can help you remember." i say pulling her in for another kiss.
charlotte: piper - hauntedcharmingholly on December 29th, 2006 11:44 pm (UTC)
My head spinned. He took over and we kissed again. A long passionate kiss.
I couldn`t stop my hands from sneaking around him and pulling him close.

"Baby.." i tried to speak throughout the kiss. "..we have to talk.." but i was stopped by another wave of lips. And i couldn`t stop.

I felt alive again. I felt alive and willing to live. For once in this last year.

Only then it hit me how I had just called Orlando.
bloom_or_land on December 29th, 2006 11:53 pm (UTC)
BABY?! she just called me baby! my heart shouted with glee.

i kissed her yet again as those beautiful memories of the past came rushing.

i finally pulled away due to lack of air. "your place or my place?"
charlotte: holly&orlandocharmingholly on December 29th, 2006 11:56 pm (UTC)
Just a slight second of hesitation.


It was like a carousel. But I didn`t want it to stop. I wrapped my arms around his neck and soflty planted kisses along his neck line. He tasted like candy.
bloom_or_land on December 30th, 2006 12:16 am (UTC)
in one swift movement, i cradled her in my arms. i felt her soft lips devouring my neck. i smiled and walk inside. shutting the door behind me.

i laid her down on the sofa and stared at her for a bit. i can't believe i ever left her...
charlotte: holly-change everything you arecharmingholly on December 30th, 2006 12:20 am (UTC)
My hands reached out for him and I grabbed his shoulders and pulled him down on me.

"Did I mention that I missed you..?" I asked and kissed his lips quickly.

bloom_or_land on January 16th, 2007 11:31 pm (UTC)
i had lost my love once but i wont lose it again. i can't afford to make any mistakes this time.

"i missed you more." i say running my fingers at her sides teasingly.
charlottecharmingholly on January 17th, 2007 06:32 pm (UTC)
"Aww," I smiled and pushed his hand away, giggling. "Stop that, you know that I`m very ticklish," I squeeaked.

Surely, I didn`t want this to end, but I needed some answers. I eyed him quickly and smiled. That could wait.

With that thought I traced his lips with my fingertips, loving the feel.
bloom_or_land on January 17th, 2007 11:42 pm (UTC)
there was a lot that needed to be explained. but right now i didn't want anything to get in the way.

after a year of being seperated and not having anyone to touch me intimately was driving me nuts!

i pulled away starring at her beautiful orbs. without a word i bend down and captured her lips.
charlottecharmingholly on January 18th, 2007 06:20 pm (UTC)
Before I knew it I was kissing him again and it felt like heaven. The bedroom door swung open and we crumbled in giggling.

The lights were dim and it felt comfortable and intimate. The only thing I wanted more than anything, anything I have ever wanted, was him. And I could have him. It was surreal.

"I need you," I whispered throughout the kiss and slightly pulled away my breath hitting his neck.
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